Sabrina - Vee Zalani

Tuesday, April 2, 2019

Dream A Little Dream

Now isn't it sad...

To suddenly realize that all along, you were only able to dream..
Like everyone else.....

But unlike everyone else, you've always been unable to achieve those dreams...

When making a decision requires more than just your own heart's desire..
When achieving a goal or a dream means breaking some hearts and disappointing people that you hold dearly to your heart..

When you honestly feel like you have found the right path for you but you just can't do anything about it. You just can never go there......

God oh how it hurts so bad.......

Am I never allowed to help being a provider?

Sunday, January 21, 2018


During hardships, one of the most important and very valuable lessons that you'll learn would be about who's been by your side?

The world might be on your shoulders, but if you have some people or even just one person next to you offering to share the burden, consider yourself lucky and always, always be grateful.. 
Let them know how much their existence and helping hands meant the world to you.
Sometimes all you need is a company.
The more I grow with life, the more I learned that money and objects are absolutely nothing compared to compassion.

Be it from your family, relatives or friends- but it is compassion that will always be the encouragement in order for you to move forward and be strong in life.


People can bring you down in whichever way they wished to.
Physically or verbally.
But if you have the right foundation in life, sticks and stones may break your bones but they will never succeed in bringing you down.

Always. Always have faith.
Always tell yourself that things are gonna be okay in the end.
You just gotta keep your head up. 
Keep your heart strong.
Giving up on a purposeful journey of life is as deadly as death! When you pursue with tenacity, and strive through the adversities and the vicissitudes of life with a mind of fortitude and get to the end of the journey, you shall surely see life. Awake!

Nobody Said It Was Easy

Funny how we sometimes got hurt over and over again but never seemed to learn anything.

I'm pretty sure I almost always learn things the hard way.. 
But of course, I honestly still have faith and believe that every cloud has a silver lining. Halo, Sun, Sky, Light, Sunlight, Rays, Clouds, Solar
 Yes sometimes it does feel like a little too much, like I really feel like there's no way someone like me could actually endure all these obstacles that hasn't stopped coming my way..

Maybe I'm one of the chosen ones...
Maybe I'm not.

I tried to think positively, tried thinking out of the box and told myself that I ought to be one of the special ones, I. AM. SPECIAL.

No matter what they say..

Funny how in this current life, being honest and doing things out of all honesty and sincerity could lead you into trouble. 

But all I know is, whatever it is that I'm going through right now, I will be okay.
Some things aren't meant to be.

Don't know how to face the world.
But gonna have to..

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Strange Sadness In My Eyes

Strange sadness in my eyes.

I wrote something about it years ago.
I thought it was long gone.
I thought it'll disappear while I was moving on.

Strange sadness in my eyes.
What are you still doing here?

Strange sadness in my eyes.
Why don't you just disappear?

Strange sadness in my eyes, I'd never lose hope.
For the strange sadness in my eyes, to leave me with my life with so much more to cope.

Speaking Of History

I've been getting some kinda dreams lately.

Makes me feel like I'm not an ordinary person.


Been having insomnia lately and got the time to actually browse through my old blog posts.
I had SUCH a life back then, huh?

Saw some posts from 9-10 years ago...
Can't believe that was my life I was reading about. 

Oh I've been married since September 2017.
Can't believe it either....
Kinda weird.
Kinda confusing.

Thursday, May 4, 2017

And after 2 years.....

Has it really been 2 years since my last update?? 😮
Now that, is a very long time..

Okay I'm pretty sure no one actually comes here anymore, but oh well for the sake of responsibility and for the sake of this blog of mine that I'm not planning to get rid of (yet), I think I'mma start posting again starting with this one right here..

So two years...

Two freaking years.. What's up? 
What's been going on?  Yeap I'm still alive, I thank God for that 😉

My God...
   A lot has been going on... I'm getting married 💑💜in a few months time, that's prolly the biggest deal right now hahaha I've been all over the place and OMG my parents and my grand aunt, nek dua got into quite a major road accident in January 😕.
Long story, everyone's recovering, my dad can't walk on his own yet, but like I said, recovering, Alhamdulillah.

     I can't even go back to where and how it started it honestly still hurts me to bits and pieces. I don't even wish for anyone else to go through what we've gone through 😥. Every time I visualized the scenes from the accident, my dad, my mom, nek dua, I tried the best I can to block those visions and block anything that's got to do with it from my mind. It became fresh, the pain, when I think about it.
It has definitely been a life changing experience for me and my family😭.
From the moment we received the phone call, to those times when we were going back and forth to the hospital since my dad was in the ER, the ICU, and the orthopedic ward. It was exhausting but it meant a lot to us, to be taking care of him to ensure him that we will always, always be right by his side no matter what happens💙.
 He's currently at a nursing home back in our hometown. Since he still can't do some stuffs on his own, and we have to move on with our lives with our work and all and can only come back once in awhile, once a week, the best I can do... Took him home once in awhile when we're back.. 
Just hoping for his recovery to go smoothly, for Allah to make things easier for him 🙏🙏🙏......
Well that're pretty much it, from that one hell of a nightmare-ish experience....

   Okay now back to myself...
Oh yessss.. I've said it, I'm getting maaaarrrieddd.. Lol yup..
Me....... Getting married 💑...
The Vee... is getting married... at 29 LOL that's actually a good thing you know..
I've always known that I'm not one who'd be married at a young age.


YESSSS go back to my couple of previous posts... That new boyfriend from 3 years back?
He's now my fiancé 😁 Yeahhhhhhh.. That guy.. 
We got engaged on December last year LOL you've missed alot huh yup I can see that 💤

Well I guess that's all for now.. This is the best I can do for a quick update, to prove that this blog is still alive, and I'm very much alive 😅 In fact, this is quite a long one, no?

Tee hee..

Now that I've start posting, let's hope it won't be another 2 years til' my next upcoming update LOL

See  ya!!! 💃💨