Sabrina - Vee Zalani

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Single brings more smil(:

Have you people ever felt this kinda feeling when we're single, there will be times when we got emotional and wish we have someone, or that 'lover' around and share the love and whatsoever? But when we're in relationships with someone, especially the kind of relationship that brought alotta mess, heartaches, lies and all- we just knew that we have to get out.
So which one is better?

Being alone, feel the longing for love.
Or being hooked, but felt killed deeply inside again and again?

Well as for me, I think I'd be better off single.
Since I'm going thru it right now and the feeling of glad conquers me better than the feeling of longing for another HIM.

I think this time is the longest period that I've been thru being single.
And never did I expected it to be wayyy better than being in a messed up relationship.

I just happened to realize that it's not that hard living without a love partner. All this while, I never gave myself some time to think wisely whether or not I should accept the man, whether or not he will be able to love me sincerely and accept me for who I am..

But I don't think I should blame myself, at the same time.
I was young, and still young.. :)
And at least, those shits that I been thru taught me alot, and of course I'm not that stupid to learn my lessons.

I guess it's true when they said, if a relationship brings more tears and heartaches than laughters, then there must be something not right with it- and a bigggg possibility that it will not work out and last long.

Sabrina's 22 now.
Not that old, but MAYBE old enough to think wisely, and be wiser.


Good morning.
I just felt like typing, and I chose to blog about Being Single Rocks!

Be safe everybody!

Eid'ul Mubarak

Greetings everyone..

First off, I would like to wish all my Muslim friends, family, relatives and my fellow blog visitors a blissful Eid'ul Mubarak.. May all of you have a blessed one.

I had my 1 day off today; fetched my sister from work at 3pm and drove to PD to meet up with my fam; my dad, grandmum, grand aunty, my eldest uncle with his wife and his 2 kids, Adam Syah and Amar Syah, my youngest uncle with his wife and his 2 kids Aleiah Khadija and Arief..

Once arrived at Avillion Admiral Cove, my dad and eldest uncle were at the parking lot waving at me as they were saving a space for me to park my car- right next to dad's..
And then we entered the hotel and met Aunty Yan, Adam, Amar and bibik. I was wondering why was Adam wearing this diaper look-alike thingy with a t-shirt..
He was ready to hit the pool. So we all walked to the pool side area and Adam got all excited once he got into the water. He looked so cute in the yellow float, splashing water at his mom and dad. Lol.

A few minutes later, my grandmum came down to the poolside with my youngest uncle and his fam.. And they got into the pool as well. And I got to witness 4 absolutely cute babies enjoying themselves in th water with so much freedom.

After spending time at the pool, we all went up to the 3 rooms; dad's got his own room-all by himself since mom was still at work. And 2 other rooms for my eldest uncle with his fam, another room for the youngest one with his fam, my grandmum and grand aunt.

We had our Eid'ul Mubarak's dishes in the room.. And it was nice, having them around after some time not seeing them all together.

Overall, I had fun. I love my family.

Gotta work at 11am tomorrow.
Have a good day, lovely visitors and followers and stalkers!
*Mucho Love; Sabrina*

Friday, November 27, 2009

One long message.

.:Don't you chase me too fast....
Because I'll be running faster.....
further away from you.:
Trust me on that. I know myself better.. In fact, as a normal human being, this is what I am supposed to feel with what's going on between 'you' and me.. Nobody likes being pushed. Especially to do something that we are unwilling at all to do..
You put so much hopes in me too soon..
And that was the part where you stepped onto the wrong track. I like you, I even told you that earlier during the first few days that you came into my life. I am so very sure to say that; NEVER, ever, did I mentioned the word love to you before.
The way you like me is freaking the hell out of me already. It was all so nice and all at first.. It all started after your regard sent to me, and then you told me that you like me. And I also said the same thing to you.. But.... I remember clearly what I said, you do have good looks; features, and the most exciting part is, you have one of the criterias that I like in a guy which is the serious and cold expression and from that expression of yours got me guessing and kept wondering about you. Like, WTH is wrong with this guy. But still, that's the reason that you got my attention and how I started to notice your existence. Seeing you passing by me without smiling or atleast a simple Hi got me guessing that you must be having some kinda issues with me. Having you approaching me, got me surprised.
.....when you said you like me, it made my day and I accepted it with arms wide opened.
But............... can you please tell me, when you actually said you LOVE me;......
Where on Earth did that feeling came from? How the hell can you simply say you love me when you didn't even know me??
You said you've fallen for me eversince the first day that you set your eyes on me. You said I look cute and sweet. So obviously, those are just my outerlooks right. What about my whole self? What's in me? Sweet? How do you know? You should think more than twice to proposed me to be your girl; which; gave me such a shock!! You said that you like me because I'm down to earth, shy and a quiet girl? OMG. You should've seen me when I'm gaving my people around! I can burst out into very loud laughters as if I've been possessed! And you ever heard me swearing here and there whenever I'm driving, rushing to work when the other drivers got me pissed off? See, you just don't know me at all to even atleast say you LOVE me!
So maybe, if I actually agreed to hook up with u and became your girl the other day, tomorrow or then you might dump me after seeing my true colors. And then you might say, "If only I knew your attitude's like this earlier.......(yada yada).." and more bullshits to come. :)
Plus, you're 1 year younger than me. To be honest, I got pissed when you said that you don't give a damn if I'm older than u are and all. What's with the selfish attitude? Yes I do know, and agree that age is just numbers and it all lies in the hands of fate. But your attitude got me stressed out- pushing me, u're starting to act like you're my man-and you kept triggering me, psychoing me by saying that you know that you're not good enough for me, not qualified to be my man-etc etc; now those are just so immature, childish, and make me take our gap of age issue seriously. Your childishness will automatically keep myself away from you. It's diff if you're younger but owns a mentality that's beyond your age and that I can cope with.
So excuse me, young man.. Please treat me with more respects rather than forcing me to love you and have the same feelings that you're having for me.It's just so damn wrong. I am indeed, a person who will keep on trying to please everyone around me, and I can be nice as long as I'm able to. Just don't cross the line. There's a borderline.
You said that you'll be frustrated if I might reject you. You agreed to be friends, so what's up with the rejecting & frustrated thingy? Do you expect me to agree being your girl just because I sympathize and I don't wanna hurt you?
--To be really honest, I do feel a lil overwhelmed when they said this is the first time they ever saw you approaching and fall head over heels over a girl.I felt special. But; I apologize if I got this wrongly; sometimes it's obvious that you're getting a lil obsessed over me and it makes me feel extremely bad. And it's also clear to see that you're already putting so much hopes in me which I've warned you earlier not to.
.:First of, I am a 22 years old lady who has been thru alotta ups and downs. Be it in relationships, or life. At my stage right now, I don't need these kiddy kinda stuffs to get stucked up on my head, add up more mess and stress me out.
:.I tried to be as nice as I could, got things clearly as a crystal to you as nice as I could. But it just seemed that you chose not to listen.
So... On that day when I might actually hurt you; I hope you'll remember every single thing that I've said to you; about not putting hopes in me.
.:Don't get me wrong. It's not that I'm being picky, fussy or whatever.^I have been 'there' before. Been in love, been on that love boat for years. It was a long, serious, dramatic one. One that I used to truly cherished and adored. But fate has done it's part by showing me the truths. And truth hurts;no doubt. It's been written this way and the love is long gone.
:.So for my future, I guess I have the rights, and it's not wrong for me to wait and one day I might be in search for what I've been dreaming for. I want to atleast try to fulfill my own dreams. Doesn't matter what it's regarding of; marriage, luxuries, career-etc.
Because to me, I'm still a young lady with a longer journey to be explored and go through.
.:I am not sick of love. But the feeling of love that I used to have with me is still on a long vacation. So let it be. I don't even want it to come back yet. Afterall, I'm actually happy with the current life that I'm leading without having the love around.
:.And with these kinda issues keep bugging me, soon I might be sticking a note on my forehead which says; PLEASE DO NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH ME. YOUR CO-OPERATION WOULD BE HIGHLY APPRECIATED. THANK YOU.
:::..i am just not ready yet to get back on that love boat. i want to be here for now..:::'s not even that important; to be in love.::

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Nowv Amp Berrrrr 24th 1987 :)

Finally, the day that no one has been waiting for has arrived. Bahahhahaha..
Okay Happy Birthday, dear self.

Funny, I tried to thank each person who wished me on Facebook last night.. But I woke up earlier today and checked my FB; too many to be replied. I'm touched looking at those people being so thoughtful.. ;) And deep down, of course I appreciate them all. It's just that right at 12am last night, I don't feel good at all; which I don't even know why...

But whatever it is, to me, birthday is just the same like every other days. Age increases every day. Tomorrow is just around the corner anyways, then nothing's so special anymore. Lol.

Here I am, the so-called birthday girl.. Still feeling down, gonna get ready to work in awhile more. Nothing to expect; coz it's all the same. :)

See you later peeps.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Nov 22nd.

Hello everybody..

Today was quite a blast..
After quite some time missing WCM's events, I finally joined the Sunday Drive to Ipoh earlier today.
Got up at 6+am, got ourselves ready and we headed to our meet up point at Elmina R&R... After everyone gathered, we started our convoy to Ipoh..
We reached our destination which was Nasi Vanggey, must be one of the famous nasi kandar place there in Ipoh kot..
The food was awesome, thankfully...

Before the event ended, they announced about a birthday to celebrate.
Never did I expected anything that's gotta do with me..
I was sitting behind the crowd, where everybody's paying attention to the person who was talking with the hailer.
Until I heard my dad's name got mentioned after the word 'birthday'.. and after my dad's, I heard Uncle Zaki called my name loud and clear.
Okay, now that was a real surprise.
I was so surprised.

And after years since the last time my dad kissed my cheeks, I got that kiss again.. :)

Thanks WCM.
I heard that my sis and Uncle Zaki were the ones who's been planning on the surprise, and Uncle Zaki bought the cake. Lol.
Malu aje.

I don't like surprises.
I mean, I hate feeling shocked and all.
But this kinda surprises cracked smiles on my face. =)

Eventhough my birthday is not even today. LOL

Next excitement, I can't wait till this coming 27th. Where I will be spending my Hari Raya Haji with my family at Avillion Admiral Cove, Port Dickson. And my off day has been approved!! Wheeeeeee~

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Dilemma, wtf?

Mr Bestfriend who's in love with me- Not talking to me anymore. I sent him a message, get things crystal clear to him. I apologized. I even said that, IF one day, it's been fated for us to be together, how can I run away from fate.. But for now, things gonna remain this way. I can't accept his love. I am not even ready to get back on the love boat.
I've done my part.
He might got it wrongly, and that is why he's avoiding me right now.
I'm feeling so guilty- for being honest...

Mr Trolley Robot: He is supposed to work morning shift tomorrow.
But he actually changed a couple of shifts just to be in the same shift with me.
It might be sweet and all if only I have the same feelings that he's having for me. Like I said, I do like him.. But all these things that he's been doing for me, is obviously based on LOVE. Not just a simple like or admiring thingy. And I feel guilty about this as well.
In fact, today I actually found out that he's one year younger than I am!!
I guess my informers were wrong when they said that he's just my age.
And, he got so worried when I seemed to have a lil problem knowing that he's a year younger and all.. He's been begging me to give him a chance, telling me that he really likes me and has been having feelings towards me since the first day he set his eyes on me. He said that I am so MANJA, sweet and all so he don't see me as anyone older.
I feel like screaming my heads off!!!!!!!

For heaven's sake.
Going with the flow still got me a lil tensed and all.

On others, work has been okay.
I'm having fun with my work, still.

I just wish I could get things back to normal between me and Mr Bestfriend.
I just wish Mr Trolley could stop showing how much he likes me every single day.

Im out.

Monday, November 9, 2009

I'm all outta love.

I been thinking hard about these situations I'm being thru..
Like, having a crush on that trolley guy.
Which, dia rupanya ada bigger and biggesttt crush on me..
Saya mengaku, tipu la kalau saya tak rasa best gila bila one of the cutest guys there actually picked me, and ada hati dekat saya sejak hari pertama dia jumpa saya.
Saya mengaku, dia memang comel, berbudi bahasa kaww, muka ketat (yang memang salah satu ciri lelaki yang saya suka)...
Tapi dia datang dengan mengharap untuk jadi lebih dari seorang kawan.

Setiap kali jumpa, dia akan perhatikan saya, ambil berat tentang saya, dan tiap hari dia luahkan perasaan dia kat saya..
Saya harap saya rasa yang sama, supaya saya tak perlu mengecewakan dia, atau menghancurkan harapan dia.
Tapi saya tak rancang atau duga semua yang terjadi ni.
Saya tak mintak dia jatuh hati dekat saya.

Saya suka dia.
Tapi cinta. Aduh mcm jiwang pulak BM nye.
Okay love..
Love and LIKE, are two different feelings.

Susah betul saya nak bina balik perasaan2 yang saya pernah ada dulu.
Saya cuba, tapi gagal.
Saya rasa payahhh sangat nak bercinta buat masa ni.
Tak boleh nak terfikirkan langsung pasal tu pun.

Kawan baik saya yang juga jatuh hati pada saya.
Malam tadi dia betul2 luahkan semua.
Dan bila saya tak dapat terima, dia mcm bengang..
Saya sayang sangat dekat dia, saya sayangg sangat persahabatan kami..
Dan memang saya diciptakan untuk sukarrrr ada hati pada sesiapa yang saya anggap KAWAN dari awal.
Tapi kenapa dia tak boleh nak faham??

Ya Allahh..

Takdir kan dekat tangan Tuhan.
Jodoh jugak..
Saya mengaku, saya takkan dapat tolak takdir kalau seandainya satu hari memang saya dijodohkan dengan dia..
Tapi sekarang?

Bukan dengan mereka berdua sahaja, dengan sesiapa punn..
Hati saya tak boleh nak sampai ke tahap yang pernah saya sampai dulu.
Saya mintak maaf.

Demi Allah, saya tak berniat untuk sakitkan hati sesiapa.
Tak pernah sikit pun terlintas niat mcm tuh.

Tapi saya pilih diri saya, daripada mereka.
Saya belum bersedia untuk bercinta lagi.

Maafkan saya.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

The Ice Room

.. is currently my fav hangout spot here in Nilai..
Since I am indeed, an ice cream person, and they serve such nice shaved ice cream with a few flavours to choose from..
But they don't just serve icecreams and those icy thingy, desserts and all.. There are foodstuffs as well.. Such as cakes, noodles, steaks, chicken chops, beef chops and all..

For now, my fav ice cream there would be;...
It's called Sweetheart something something.. Almond flavoured.

Tee hee.. After some time not posting on food..
Here I am..

Monday, November 2, 2009



One word to describe the life that I'm leading currently.
No it's not a bad thing at all.. :)
I could whine when I'm bored with nothing to do and I could whine when I'm feeling so tired with hella so much of stuffs to do.
So it's just normal right..

As y'all can see, yea I'm not complaining about my new, current job.
I guess everything's flowing nicely, Alhamdulillah...
I didn't get to spend much times hanging out with my friends anymore like what I used to do when I was working back in KL a few months ago.

But finally, yesterday, I was given the morning shift.
So I decided to meet up with my friends...
I was late for All American Reject's concert at Bukit Jalil..
But I made it and I got to watch them perform their last 2-3 songs..

And then Shac took us to this restaurant at PJ, I think some of you people must've heard of it.. It's Strawberry something2.. The owner was so friendly. And they do serve delicious and affordable delicacies. Shac, Baby, Hanim and Tatak all four ordered the same dish- the cream butter prawn rice or whatever the name is supposed to be. Harus la diorang punya kena tagged by me. Lol. And yes, it was so delicious. Since I do love creamy, milky stuffs and all.. The cream reminds me of carbonara's gravy, minus the cheese.
I had one of my most fav dishes la, Cantonese Kueh Teow. Since it's my fav, I've tried it at numerous places, and what I had there last night was superb as well. I aint got no complaints. =)
There's gonna be a second time for me, and I'll be ordering what they ordered! And no one can tag mine!! LOL.

A few hours ago...
I talked to that guy bestgriend of mine- the one that I mentioned about having feeling towards me..
We texted.. And then I told him that I wanna ask him something..
And I started with this.. "Aku dengar kau suka kat aku eh?"..
The rest of the conversation, gonna be kept safe here in my heart. And it's alrealy locked.
Solex bro!!

Aight now.. A very goodnight to everyone..
Let us all have a peaceful night..